Beautiful people - Part III

Today as I began writing, I didn’t know where this one was headed. Something from within called for this writing and that is where I started this off. I began as a confused soul. I asked myself a few questions, is life always about the people in your present, what about those who left? Some knowingly and some unknowingly drifted away. Is it always about physical presence of people in your life? Would my life be the same without a certain said people walking through my heart? I found answers to few and some are left unanswered as I don’t know how I completely feel about them. Some sanctity did prevail as I reached a conclusion in my heart. Now that schooling and college and the care free days of friendships are over and we are not in the phase of everyone being available every single time; it is imperative to realize that the importance of those people and the impact they once created in your life will and in no way can be whipped off. And that is because of the simple fact that they touched your soul. Not everybody has the ability and I would say the honor of doing that in your life. I say honor because these are the people who have seen your bare soul. The unidentified, uncensored version of you. Some like tagging them as ‘best friends’; ‘support systems’; or ‘disguised family’. Call them as you like, but the truth remains that they exist. Somewhere deep down in a corner of your heart they still continue to play a role. If you’re lucky some of them form part of your present.

So these beautiful people who I am talking about today are my ‘special ones’.  The ones without who I probably wouldn’t have made it through college and school. Better put, the ones who made school and college worth cherishing (and blogging today). Easier said than done right? How can I put to words relations and people who don’t need words to understand me? How can I express my feelings about faces who read my expressions like an open book? How can I make believe my readers that such startling people exist who startle my life? How can my words give life to these humans who make life a better place to live in? This is where I decide to let my heart do the talking today.

From having someone from the time of your birth and still having her part of your life, physically and emotionally seems like a miracle, doesn’t it? But it is true in one case. A sister in disguise, my parent’s third child and the person who is just a panic call away. From having our share of ups and downs as school children, she has been a testimony and companion to growing up. We beat the conventional best friend tag, because she’s just family now. Walked into my life without invitation; (well, we were born in the same hospital four days apart) and is going to now stay till the end with our will, because life seems to have fevicoled our lives! That’s us! Effortlessly and no constraints! With her life doesn’t have serious issues; that is not because we don’t have problems, but because we have the ability of laughing over them together.

When I first walked into college, I did know college will bring people who I’d befriend, but I never thought I’d find gems! It is difficult to find people with who you can be completely yourself and be assured you won’t be judged. When that happens, you know you’ve found the right ones! Luckily I found two of them! Seniors, support systems, my overdose of madness. No amount of words would ever describe these two guys in my life completely. I am the last one who would trust someone easily. And today, when I am in a place where I don’t know if they’ll physically be present in my life tomorrow, I still know that I can blindly trust them. That’s what life teaches you, doesn’t it? Time, life and work are only quantified in numbers but what cannot be quantified is the love and care of people. The people who never expressed their love and people who I never expressed of what they mean to me are the ones who’ll remain the closest to your heart. The guys who can tolerate my drama and reciprocate it with more drama. The men who can handle a said non-emotional girl’s emotions and the boys who can give back more emotional outflow. The people who make me feel home with just listening to their voice. Whether it was a silent treatment or the stern critical warning or the never-ending care and love they showered me with. We played such multi-dimensional roles in each other’s life. But it was only to see the other one smiling. They are nothing but magicians. Life has been a roller coaster with them, but not a tiny bit less than a ride you never want to forget. It may sound filmy but it does happen, on a day when you need help, on days when you are down and out and they are out of calling reach, you just have to think of those two beautiful souls and remember that they are watching over you and it will leave you with a smile. A smile which is worth way more than what money can buy you. A reassurance and comfort no activity can get you.

The last human, I am talking of today (order must not be misconceived) is a physical distance away but will never be away. The girl who sitting a 10000 kilometers away from me knows with just my messages if I am happy or sad or upset or high on life! Needless to say, I can do the same. Maybe that is our greatest gift. A soul sister, a mirror, the strongest support, my secret santa, my birthday santa, my countdown keeper, in every true sense of the word, ‘partner in crime’.  We’ve both used this phrase for so many others. But the justice to the phrase is done only by you. From making similar choices in college to wanting to do the same things. We’ve broken the shackles of conventionality in every way. In our case, I don’t know what the future holds or what the past held, I just know one thing and that is that you are the one friend I want to have till eternity. Whether it is making an effort from a different time zone or in future a different life, it will always be the way it is.

I do not know what life would have looked like if these four hadn’t crossed my path. Maybe it would have been a little less dramatic, a little less clumpsy and a little less emotional. But it would also be a lot less special, a lot less loving, a lot less magical and a lot less easy. It is the comfort your heart feels being surrounded by them that makes you go on in life. This has nothing to do with meeting them every day or speaking to them every day or making a false promise of ‘permanent’. They are not my ‘constants’ of life as often addressed (even by me, foolish me) but they definitely are the constants of the heart.  The four pillars of my building of life. I can move to another floor higher or lower as life will take me in the future, but the basic four pillars that can never be broken and never be shaken are the ones you build growing up. They stand right there until an earthquake or human created demolish takes the building down. They go down only when the building seizes to exist.

We do not have control of who stays in our life forever. Destiny has a different style of playing than ours. What stays are memories and regrets of not making enough efforts to let them know what they mean to you. So never stop making the ones you love feel special. Because the most amazing feeling is the feeling of making some one smile, and if seeing somebody smile makes you smile in turn, it is your sign that they mean the world to you.

That is what they mean to me, I do not need to take names to convey to who this is addressed. Because somethings are better left unsaid.   

The four pillars of my life. The one's who touched the soul. This one is for the spirit of  friendships and love. For the never-dying connection of the heart.